Forgotten

I know I'm not the only one to have forgotten a name, date, phone number or something important. I try hard not to.

Is there any way to feel like you're not forgotten to your family? I have relations that live 45 minutes, 2 1/2 hours and more way. Even when I did live close it didn't matter I was always the one forgotten.

I have a loving husband who I care deeply about. Friday is our 8th anniversary. I have wonderful children who I absolutely love and adore. Yes, we have struggles.

This might seem strange, but I'm forgotten. Outside of my little family I love my Mum more than anything. She's never made me feel forgotten. I miss her a lot. I need my Mum.
I keep asking myself what is wrong with me, what have I done or keep doing to push others away? I know I'm not better than anyone. Right now I just want to stop hurting, but I don't know how. I've tried to explain to Ben, but he just doesn't understand. True he came from a family that.... what's the phrase "unconditional love". I know I've not made terrible mistakes but I've felt like I was the one cast out.